Then I Met My Soul Mate

I know many people don't believe in Soul mates and honestly, I don't think I really ever did until I met mine.  My life was spent trying to be adaptable to the men I was involved with and I spent years with a few guys trying to be what they wanted me to be and when I tried to think of whether I was truly happy, it was really hard for me to know if it was because I truly was or if it was because I've convinced myself that I was because I had adapted to their loves and interests.  After my divorce and with the trust issues I had, I wasn't really sure what the future held emotionally.  I decided that I was going to be myself and if the recipient didn't like it, then they weren't for me.  When I met my soon-to-be husband, we'll call him Tony.  I had a lot of things going on that I knew I was not ready to meet the one I was going to spend the rest of my life with. I had to learn to trust again, to love myself, and to really work on things.  I started going to church again and I found a Christian Church that was perfect. The music was amazing, the people there were about my age and very welcoming, and the sermon always felt as if he was speaking right to me. I would walk out of there with a whole new action plan for how to better myself.  I went for about 6 months, but wavered in my regularity and commitment to going.  I always had excuses.  The night I met Tony was just another night where I truly didn't appreciate 'good guys' and honestly, I really didn't think any existed.  I knew Tony was interested and I let him know that I was somewhat interested too, but the for me the timing was not so good and I'd probably end up chewing him up and spitting him out. There were other reasons that kept us from starting to date and honestly, I thank God every day that we didn't. I don't think we would have lasted.  Five months after we originally met, we were reunited with the intention of getting to know each other and it worked.  We started dating and within 8 months, we were engaged and within 14 months, we were married.  I knew I loved him right off the bat, BUT I had trust issues and I really had to work through them before I let myself go fully.  I promised Tony that I would do my best not to punish him for what my ex's had done, but I was a work in progress. From our first date, we were completely honest with each other and for the first time in my life, it was easy.  I honestly didn't realize relationships could be so easy when you found the right person.  We had so much in common and we communicated in a way that we just 'got each other' and the thought that I may have found my Soul Mate was a possibility.  I have always felt strongly about horoscopes. No, I don't live by them, but I do feel there are some strong meaningful correlations between a person's sign and their personality.  I also feel strongly about pairing up the right signs and how it affects the relationship. I don't ready my horoscope every day because they seem so general and ambiguous, but I do ask what a person's sign is when I meet them.  My last three ex's were the same sign and let's just say that their unfaithfulness was something I wanted steer clear of for the rest of my days.  When Tony and I talked, it was later realized that our signs are polar opposites from each other.  That's right, your birthday has one date that is the exact polar opposite and if the person you are with was born on that date, then you are dating your polar opposite. My sign doesn't pair that well with Tony's sign except his birth date. Not a day before or a day after would pair well with me, but luckily his birth date does. As the cliche goes, 'opposites attract' - we were the epidemy of that very saying. And honestly, we never fight, we communicate so well and almost every view or belief is the exact same.  It is truly amazing that I found him and I am happy to spend the rest of my life making him feel appreciated for taking a chance with a broken, divorced, and non-trusting girl like me.  Tony makes me feel like I'm the most amazing person in the world and even after being together for several years, he makes me feel like every day is like the first day when he looks at me. How that is possible, I'm not sure, but he does.  I love it and I love that I found him. I can say that within a year, we talked about my trust issues and there was a point in time where I told him that I completely trusted him not just in the way we look at trust, but in the way that I know he'll always be there for me and I can trust that he is my soul mate.